| 2010/04/23 |
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也许喜欢一个人,
就是在拨电话时突然不知道说什么好 ,
原来,
只想听那熟悉的声音...
这句话真的很有意思...
他告诉我
( 嗯..听那熟悉的声音, 让自己安心...
我真的那么那么想见到你
可是不能见你,
只好打给你听你的声音,
我真的真的好想你..
发现自己越来越爱你了...)
先是喜欢后来是爱..
谢谢你那么疼我..我说过如果疼就会宠坏..
可是你说我就是被宠坏的..
你脾气也是不好啊..
可是不会对我发脾气,就算明明是我错..
你也一样底头和我认罪..
为什么那么愿意??
就算能够见我一面..几远都会来..
为了要和我聊..累了也不要去睡..
一天就睡那么四五小时..
如果是自己睡着了,会觉得愧疚...
隔天和我道歉...
在朋友眼中,你脾气不好..
但在我心中,你细心, 贴心..
我是修了什么福让我遇见你..
而你是修了什么福遇到我这么样样都不好的人..
不要对我好..会让你受伤.. |
posted by Caitlyn @ 16:16   |
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yester dnt knw y mood so down??
mayb is last night 's thing..i so hate myself 4 what i m doing..i really hate..
feel myself is a bad girl..really bad..
how ?? i hope myself wont repeat this again..
i cant like tat ..always need his caring..
lol..this few day also nothing happened la..
suddenly missing aston..
sun go find him..
he sure boring la..
no go out n dnt knw call who out v him..
everytime is sin hao / siaoying / seepau fetch..
but siaoying hv 2 wrk , sinhao lazy 1 , seepau no topic discuss..
haiz ~
then how abt my sing k ??
really need it la..long time no sing liao !!!
2moro i hv 2 attend my test..2night hv 2 finish up all test 1st..
if not dnt knw how 2 die 2moro..
then through this oppurtunity , i can meet some of my friend tat no meet 4 long time..
hope everything well 2moro..
during night, hv 2 go blogger..
omg ~shit shit !!!
hv 2 meet some plp i dnt like..
what hv 2 do??
need smile n keep plesure..
but still hope jiawing not call them go...^^ ( impossible )
cz need 2 go blogger then cant out v boy..
feel sry 2 him..
nvrm la..mayb like tat more good
if not he always 'll said miss me ^^
suddenly remember 1 thing ..
alex foo ask 4 my blog
actually i wilingly give him my blog ,
but in here i got write abt kye..
then he also good v kye..
then scare 'll tell kye something..
kye now is in relationship..
i dnt 1 disturb his things la..really
dnt knw how ?? keep quite n thought i dint c his reply ??
sry la..i also dnt knw what i hv 2 do ..<3 |
| posted by Caitlyn @ 12:24 |
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| 2010/04/21 |
| 不爽 !!! |
现在我真的很饿..最近不懂为什么老是吃很多..胃口+++
惨了,肥了..
昨晚我收到一封信息我真的不爽..
不爽是明明是我们聚会嘛为什么非要叫物理班的一起呢??
只想以前我们常聚的那班回味下最后一次的聚会了..
说穿了..我是不喜欢他们..
但只是我,永远只是我..因为我放不下..
因为是最后一次,我能忍佳一起同行..
但一时要我接受三个,我真的不行啦..
早知我也叫晓盈他们啊...
问题是我知道酱不合理..大家没有话题..
那同样的她有没有想我不喜欢他们呢??
你自己参他们多就不要把人也容纳进来..( 酱说有点过分 )
也许他们认为都最后一次了大家又是同校..
咳 ~
其实我更气我为什么到现在还是接受不了他们..
心里就是那么不爽他们..
心里虽然没有怨恨但就觉得没必要见面就尽量不见..
因为很尴尬..不懂说什么..
也很不想看到某人一直问东问西,做作的模样..
或是另个在炫耀什么..就有他们在..我浑身不自在..
川说的对..
我就是那么死脑筋..牛脾气..
傻的..为了他们几个就不去..
应该去, 还要一定要比他们玩得更开心..
对, 都最后一次了..
不喜欢就少理他们咯..
重点我是因为梓维才去的嘛..
我不能那么少兴..
因为我整天都拒绝他们..
可能那班人很想看到我仂..
做人不可以酱..
我明明知道但还是会犯错..
也许这就是天蟹座女生的坏处...
我的性格就是酱一旦不喜欢就很难再给我好印象了...
希望你们明白我的心..
我有错,到现在还是放不下 ( 小气 )
但你们也有错就是不是每个人都能接受你们.. |
| posted by Caitlyn @ 12:40 |
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| 2010/04/17 |
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昨天帮老板剪了400条布条..还有100条仂..
剪到我真的很累..手很酸..腰很痛..
可是没办法,我就不能容易屈服自己..一定要克服..
现在500条算好了..下星期我要剪和帖1500条..OMG..死了..
下星期时间不懂怎么过..希望老板会加薪水给我啦..
看在我那么歏劳份上..^^
回到家休息一下又出去了..
和朋友们去了megamall看了初恋红豆冰的演员...静茹心洁真的很美..果然出名的明星是不一样的..我们只是远远地望,心里却满足了...吃着mcd sundae cone, 心里就是那么踏实...
昨晚也突然知道梓维要去Utar,心里不舍得耶..
突然少了像他酱笨笨的..整天会说我好笑..他帮我很多..我会的他很细心教我..
都知道啦..我要学很久才懂的..他也不会发脾气..依然教我..感动..
他是好人..他去了那里不知会给人欺负吗 ?? 担心..希望那些人是真心和他教朋友..
Yvonne Khor的父亲去世了,麟告诉我的..
好段段的突然就走了..又是一件令人心酸的事..发生突然..
所以也不懂她现在还好吗 ?? 一定很伤心..
希望一切会很好..她很孝顺..接下来就是她照顾弟弟了..
星期四那天, ( 我,进,盈和麟 ) 去吃sushi..
四个人竟然吃了四十多盘..天啊..
饱到..很久没那么饱了..大家的肚皮都涨起来了..^^
好好笑..最近做工的地方那个阳光美少男...SIANG
最近一直和我说话..之前我不是说了吗..
很想跟他单独说话..我们聊了很多..他其实不是我想象中静啦..
刚才他要出去时还跟我说再见..^^
笑的时候,梨窝还会出来..真的很帅..
如果是我男朋友,那该多好...( 想太多)
想想也没关系吧..
得不到就是凭想象...
等下,我和boy去看初恋红豆冰了..蛮期待这部电影...
觉得不错..很想跟他两人出去..不会那么尴尬可是还是要约他朋友..
咳..要和他一起出去都难...
没关系啦..辛亏我们不是情侣的关系...
另个好消息就是我得到medsi了..
换句话说..我得到可以去考试进大学的教育系..
其实没抱太大的希望..有那机会去考试..上天已经对我很好了..
想到如果我得到..就要去到沙巴那么远..
有点害怕 , 紧张...
得到也繁难..得不到也烦恼..
24/4去考试了..
还必须去到两个..时间不懂怎样安排..
也不懂交通怎样..是我最烦的..
希望一切顺顺历历... |
| posted by Caitlyn @ 10:38 |
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| 2010/04/15 |
| gathering 5/15/2010 |
now my stomach full lo..^^
jz eating pizza..boss belanja..
lol..i jz eat 2 pieces nia..
then cant eat ler..
later need attend gathering at sushiking,
so expect..
aston come back le..
so missing him..
got aston, woei lin, siaoying, tuan, seok yen n me..
mayb qiaoying them..
dnt knw ivan 'll wait n watch us eating outside boh..^^
jz hoping v can chat n gather lo..
hope everything 'll b well soon
then hv 2 plan go sing k then go dinner Genting in penang
kye tell me b4 , the landscape quite nice looking frm there
i hope v got another sweet memory at there
but d only day v can go is saturday / sun
this day sing k in redbox vry expensive de wor
haiz..nvrm la..
hope this plan successfully.. |
| posted by Caitlyn @ 15:15 |
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| 2010/04/13 |
| 失望 ... |
昨晚真的不想回他信息
不懂为什么
在听着爱上你 ~ by2
突然一封信息叫我下雨了要盖好被不要冷到,我才病好不要生病了..
眼泪不禁地流
一直回想起他(2)为我做的
可是我就那么狠下心拒绝他(2)两次
他(2)依然对我很好
觉得愧疚就回一封告诉他(2)我要睡了
同时想起他是否在等我信息
他会不会担心我一整天不回他了
我想要的答案是是
可是他令我失望了
明明在等我在担心我
却没勇气说出口
真的那么难吗 ??
又一次吵架
我给他机会说几乎不是一次
他就怎么错过了
有些东西错过了就不会再有
我是多么 想要听到你说担心我
为什么没回你信息
你正在等我信息
你却一次一次说没事了
现在说后悔了要我再给你一次机会
现在我什么都不想听了..
心已经是彻底失望了
我不懂为什么就想听到那些话
可能会一时冲动答应你呢
可是现在不会了..再也不会给你机会
因为你不懂珍惜... |
| posted by Caitlyn @ 16:14 |
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| 2010/04/10 |
| A BlogGer dAy .. |
| yester went out v ah boy..he come 2 my house by his own..made me suprise..he look fat jor compare v xiao boy..fatter than aston..then v chat outside..actually i told him adready..i feeling not well..but he seem no heard abt it..9.10pm++ , i n him plan go mcd..i dint eat yet cz feel stomach 2 full..he also dint eat..but he dnt 1 eat..dnt knw y..mayb 1 keep fit..then he go dian xin cheng find his friend..i jz wait him in car..then his friend come near d car jz view me simply..all his friend like tat 1..i feel stress..our relationship jz friend..but his friend all thought i m his gf..somemore where he go sure let friends knw..they always gather during night..omg..later james call him..ask him abt where location he was..then he said he 2gther v me at blogger..omg..again let james knw ad..i ask y u 1 told them u were 2gther v me..he jz reply james knw he sure come n find me then bring me out 1..really brother of them..dnt knw y i so desired knw more abt james's things..so i always ask boy..through d conservation of boy..i realise james is a good guy..jz his mouth cant tahan him nia..he really care his friend..n take care all his friend who smaller than him..i jz admire he got this kind of personality..jz like this ..nothing ++ ..when at blogger, got a few ladies wearing blue dressers..asking customer 2 buy cigarette..d way they sold like tat day d ladies outside dream..but they dressup really nicely..jz dnt knw got this kind of job during night..then boy told me abt ahlong things..he said he got friend doing this kind of job..i only realise what is ahlong n thier way of thiers business..i learnt mny sosial things in our life by boy..he really knw abt this cz abt he live berapit..berapit is a place where d children after 18 years old 'll out 2 '' University Social ''..they wont continue study again..during chat time v boy , i really cant tahan cz my stomach pain..my feeling not well but i order watermelon juices again..sure more not ok..but i try endure..until last minutes , i jz spread out...telling boy i 1 go bck..he vry worry on me..i knw..feel sry lo..everytime went out v him , i also not very ok...last time is eye..this time is stomach..haiz..but what hv 2 do?? but this time really made me suffered..i wait until 2.30am also cant sleep..jz lying on d bed..after tat i wake up again by 3.45am cz stomach vry pain..omg..i wait until 5.00am only can sleep through..such a suffer day..until now i also feeling not very well..dnt knw 2moro i can 2gther v ivan them go pc fair boh.. |
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| 2010/04/09 |
| Working day .. |
2day is d 1st day pc fair..i feel 1 2 go..nt cz 1 buy item..is 1 collect d information abt notebook..but seem i cant go cz no friend accompany me go..haiz..nvrm..nxt time go shopping then only go dell's counter..i think this way also can..
2day my previous boss take me n shiee ruey ~ colleague / yikang 's cousin go 2 eat..v go zhou si fu..chat there..my previous boss always play a trick v me..he always berfoya-foya during night..but i feel tiok he vry care on his wife also..when his wife at home , he wont go out..dnt knw is scaring being scolded or 1 accompany her la..
his brother jz older than me 3 years..very handsome n white leh his skin..when u look at him , u sure 'll laugh..he give d 1st impression is like this..he is very shy...when i talk 2 him , he wont watch on me..everytime when i saw him , i sure 'll laugh..mood 'll b good lo..haha..although v not much talk , he also less talk 2 me..but i very expect he 'll take d initiative talk 2 me..i m waiting tat day..@@
this guy call ah siang..got a siam gf..but my previous boss said he is being tackeh by this girl..this girl always spotcheck him cz scare he being tackeh by another 's girl...so he less can communicate v girl..but d only thing i shocked was ah siang not very like her lo but can 2gther until now leh..d reason was ah siang dnt knw how 2 refuse her..omg..he should meet me early ma..i can protect him..haha..another thing i hope is ah siang can cook laksa 1 day 4 me..he vry good cooking on laksa..but seem this is a daydream~
after eating , i go upstair find ah boon..actually recently i feel he not very border on me lo..when i sms him , feel tiok he not very 1 reply me..dnt knw him r..actually i 1 lend mov frm him 1..really really 1..but he seem not very border me..i also shy borrow frm him la..nvrm le la..left few more day i can hv a notebook le..hehe..but also hope he can borrow me la cz i very like watching drama..when d moment i enter U , time 4 me 2 watch sure 'll less..nw watch much also quite nice..
ok lah..2day enuf 4 here..lets chat abt yesterday..
yester i watched clash of titans..i feel ok lo..dnt knw y feel this mov not better than lightning thieves..mayb their story look vry same..both also using myth b thier title..mny things also look very same..no freshness adready..tat day feel i really less 2gther shuyan them le lo..every thier news i also heard frm siaoying..i can cham them but they seem not very like 2 call me lo..but nvrm la..same la..less go out then 'll less waste $..but whatever also need keep contact v them la..if not nxt time when v met sure 'll shy.. |
| posted by Caitlyn @ 17:44 |
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| 2010/04/08 |
| 我爱雨夜花 |
A day again boring..nw very tired cz helping company do furnishing ( mean ~ cut n gam banner ) almost 3 hours..tiring =!=
2day again when i went 2 company, its raining..everytime also like tat..let me got wet..ish..
whats a life i hv nw ?? so boring everyday..feel 1 go n learn dancing but no transport..haiz..
learn how 2 bake biscuit n cake lo..quite a good idea..all person advise me dnt go n work during night..let myself rest..but this rest time really made me suffer..feel nothing done..keep on thinking..i also dnt knw wat i need 2 think..but automatic think +++...n non stop...
yester 1.30am..i still cant sleep..my eye still blinking n thinking again..i continue my reading
~ 那一年我们追的女孩n somemore listening 我爱雨夜花..
d feel so good..d lyrics very touching although i dnt knw wat tats mean..cz they use d language hokkien..vry soft..can let my brain n mind stop a while..dnt hv 2 think others..
suddenly i read 1 sentences..i got note in facebook..very meaningful..
没有人可以定义你的爱情..tats right..i hope this sentences can share v friend..
jz nw when i msn v sying..she mood not good..cz abt somebody..u r..y u like tat ??
always let girl cant guess wat u thinking..yup..if u dnt hv feel v sying..can u pls dnt threat her well..like tat she 'll cant stop thinking of u..dnt 1 gave her some hope..this hurt than u said u dnt like her..really..not kidding..
but d same time..y i still sms v boy although i knw myself cant accepct him..very suffered..
i 'll hurt him..haiz..again cant stop this topic..
interview time is coming soon..although i not sure myself being called 4 interview..this interview vry important b hv 2 prepare mny things..hv 2 memorise +++..hope i can handle it.. |
| posted by Caitlyn @ 17:06 |
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| 2010/04/05 |
| About U ...BOY |
yester i done a wrong thing..i dnt knw y i told boy abt xian's things suddenly..i jz mention dont threat me important in ur life cz it is nt available n i hv bf ad..i spoke all of this mayb is jz 1 test him..i asked if i already got bf then u 'll nt like me anymore..if our character was changed, my answer was yes..i wont let myself 2 like u anymore coz u already got bf..there is no meaning 2 let myself waste time on u..this is my opinion..but my heart seem dont 1 this answer..i jz 1 maintain our relationship like b4..if 2day i was xian's gf , i was very hate myself..although xian was my bf , he cant give d feeling 2 me tat he is my bf, not care on me..i knw u vry care on me..u cant always find me , whn v go out also , mny ur friend 'll 2gther..act i not sure abt my feeling 2 u..
but d moment u said my question is so funny ~ ask u abt wheter 'll still like me if i got bf already..
ur reply ~ u think like this thing 'll sudden gone..u said u got bf then my like 2 u 'll sudden dissapear??
ya..u r right..i m so funny ask u abt this thing if i still was xian's gf..tat moment my feeling vry down..my heart hurt..more hurt than when i separate v xian..cz i think mayb i 'll lost ur caring..d only thing i found recently was i m not so love xian...whn he cant gave me d feeling he is my bf but i found it on ur side..i knw this vry wrong..our sms not like common friends..ur caring 2 me also not friend so simply..i feel it..but wat i hv 2 do..i jz knw myself cant accepct u..
i also dnt knw y ?? was ur factor?? mayb was..cant find d feeling abt safety on u..
so this is d problem i cant accepct u..jz 1 keep u in my heart..i got feeling v u..really..
if 1 day i lost on u..i cant imagine wat's d life i suffered.. sry abt my greedy..
i jz need time..time time time..nw wat i also dnt 1 think n go n do..i jz need simple life..jz like tat..
but nw i only realise such a simple life i desired was so hard 4 me..a simple life without thinking..jz go ahead wat i like 2 do..will it cant let me get it ?? will it i doesnt hv tat qualification?? |
| posted by Caitlyn @ 11:21 |
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| 2010/04/02 |
| 分手的那一天... |
昨晚愚人节的同时..我做了个决定..我和贤分了..我没有太伤心..因为这是我很早做的决定...我舍不得因为从此我联系里就少了他...上facebook就少了他和我说话..电话里再不会出现他叫我dear..每天晚上就少了你一封和我说晚安的信息了...这些是我不舍得的..在这短短的一个月里除了见面我真的感觉不到我们是情侣...一直告诉我自己你忙但这些是借口..同样我门大家都知道无法和对方沟通...只维持着彼此是情侣的关系..到今天我才明白如果真的彼此有感觉就算没交往,心里把他当成自己的另一半其实也足够..情侣这字眼真的只是对彼此朋友有个交代...让大家知道你是我的了暗示着不要被抢走...情侣能做的就是有了肉体上的互动..说明 : ( 不是那种肮脏的东西..就是牵手 , 让他抱 , 躺在他怀里 , kiss ) 这些...这些就是爱的表达..不能说出爱你这字..这就是行动上的表示...虽然这些我和你都做过了...但就不能感觉你在乎我...相反的别人的一点小动作更让我觉得他在乎我..
我脑海一直记得他在看电影时一直望着我 , 我叫的lattle他会帮我搅好让我喝 , 要去那里都一直问我能不能...虽然他不敢像你第一次约会就会牵我的手...但我感觉到那份爱...和他朋友一起出来好像证明了我是他的女朋友...( 这个他是另外一个... ) 当这个人问我是否交往 , 我内心就会愧疚..因为我是你女友..起先和他出去时,只是抱着和朋友出去吧了..到后来慢慢的他和我说: 想我 , 怕失去我时..我的反应真的不知道要给什么..我只是坦然地接受了..像进说的..他真的可能爱我多过我喜欢他..可以无条件为我付出..就像忠文一样..是不是年龄小的都是这样..都是很了解你的..其实我知道我和这个人也不能发展到什么程度..是因为我们不止有距离, 年龄, 学历等等的差别..他现在处于做工的状态..我之后必须去读书..可能过后我们相处会很难..我不能和他聊科业上的事情..那不是比忠文的话题还少吗??可能我想得太多..其实爱情这东西不要顾虑那么多..是真心喜欢对方..在乎对方..信任对方..其他的都是次要... 现在的我只是不想顾虑那么多..不像再冲动做那些事..就顺其自然..如果感觉来了..我不会避..会去接受..只是现在我分不清..可能我也想自己不要去分清吧..我还是相信有一天我可以找到他爱我然后无条件为我付出..而我们的距离不会太远的... 贤...像你说的..我们依然是朋友..以后也会约对方出来..如果以后发现彼此有感觉也一样可以再来..这些是你对我说的..可能你在安慰我..谢谢你让我知道谈恋爱是这样的感觉..抱歉我不是你理想的对象..我知道你喜欢过我就足够了..我不懂我自己依然会去等待那一天你为我而改变的时候吗..我怕自己会先接受别人..也或许我会等...很矛盾..就像我说的..情侣总是会要求对方为自己做更多..我相信我们彼此以朋友的方式沟通可能会更好.. |
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Name: Caitlyn
Home: Penang, Malaysia
About Me: 整天心不在焉..爱想东西..所以让人觉得我笨苯的..容易给人欺负式的..其实我也有坚强的一面..我很怕闷..不喜欢过不充实的生活..
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