2009/10/30
明天就是我19岁的生日了...有些期待虽然知道洁他们会帮我庆祝但还是希望会有
其他我想念的朋友忇...好贪心我哦..其实能过生日我应该觉得庆幸了..这几天都没
去学校..我们开始要努力了剩这几天就要看自己是否可以胜任自己..拿到好成绩..
虽然什么神也拜了..但还是不放心..我整天都粗心..会做的可是成绩不是很好..这一
年来我非常努力..是真的..连我喜欢看的戏我都放了...这是我爱好忇..可是更不想
以后会后悔...最近很多戏播了..都是我爱看的...咳~可是要忍着不然就会整天看
了...上星期日..我和川出去..很久没有和他出去了..他每次都好像不想和我出..如果
这次不是因为我要他教我数学而他要我给他意见关于他设计的纪念册..我想他又会
拒绝我吧...他给我看了遥遥的纪念册好特别哦..是我从来没看过的..好像自己也拥
有一本...不可能学校没酱的想法和设计...那天我心情很差因为一直都在外面..书没
什么动到..和川回来后又和洁去法雨图书馆...还是有点觉得川kehqiang...他一直
说他怎样会那些东西..其实我想说那些我都会...他完全没有解决我不会的问题..可
是我没说我会只是静静地听而已...他还拿了我一些书啊..害得我没办法读...信息给
他了..又没回..最讨厌这样..可是我还是....有点想念进和俊咯..好久都没联络了..还
有浓也是..她好像正在考试..还是不打扰她了...进呢要回来了..哈哈...虽然盈会在
图书馆遇见可是我们都没说话..她有她的朋友..我呢也和洁她们坐..很多时候很想
过去和她说话可是都不懂要说什么结果就没有了..可能我们少联络了吧..不知她是
否记得我生日呢?还有一样东西我希望可以被录取去云顶做工..我朋友都被录取
了..之前我没抱太大希望觉得自己应该不可以..现在看到我朋友录取了..自己却...
觉得我到那里做至少可以赚多钱回来..说不定找到真爱呢...想太多~希望有个快
乐...suprise的生日...

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posted by Caitlyn @ 01:20   0 comments
2009/10/23
这几天我都不大理个人...原因我也不懂可能被他们讲到厌倦了..其实我已经说过很多次
我和他不会是那种关系...洁说得很对,如果对方视我为朋友..那么我们的关系不会发展到
情侣的状态..其实是我自己害怕他会说出我不想听的东西..他的性格有时让我很烦...可
是他是唯一一个能容忍我的性格~脾气不好..很迟才回人信息..对他发脾气..想做什么就
做什么..心情不好对他发泄..这些全部他都能忍受..他真的很棒..可是就不是我理想的情
人..对不起我很清楚我要的是什么..就算你对我再怎么好..我对你只能说抱歉...因为不能
回报你什么..只能身为一个朋友地关心你...最近我很想一个人..其实以前就想了...我承
认可能对他有点动心..可是后来想想我们距离太大了...我不是他喜欢的..我知道他对每
个人都很好..包括我在内..可是每次我都觉得不满注..我好自私哦...我们已经很久没有联
络了..有时拿起电话真的很想发信息给他..就算知道他只会回我几封..很冷淡地对我..可
是我还是愿意..星期一时..我勇敢地信息给他..他有回我..他那几封信息我一直保留在收
件箱里不肯删掉..觉得宝贵..觉得自己崩溃了...在某天..上facebook时..看到他和朋友出
去..有点失落..怎么他没叫我去..每次我回叫他但被拒绝了..他答应过我的也只是说说..
只是我自己在在乎..这些才是我内心真的想说的话...你曾经说过..在那么多女生当中..我
也是你其中一个会对我说心事的人..那时我高兴..真的...可是以前我总是觉得你不是因
为你想和我叫朋友而是你身边的朋友都和我很好所以你想了解我..我到现在也一直有酱
的想法...为什么为什么? 上天就是要让我遇见你..为什么我身边的朋友就喜欢你..我不能
和人倾诉..因为明白我朋友喜欢你...我一直告诉自己..只是想和你成为好朋友..距离让我
们远离..时间让我们的回忆消失...你明白为什么以前我总是对你很冷淡...就算约你朋友
也不会开口要你去..因为怕看到你会不能忘记...我不想要..明知道是这样的结局..不想让
自己再去想..再去发梦...

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posted by Caitlyn @ 01:53   0 comments
2009/10/09
this whole week ..i m so sad coz of my result..haiz..finally fail 2 sub..math
n che again..when i get math paper 1 i lost on control..i crying..coz d
result so worst..in last week holiday..i try myself do mny Q..almost d Q i
quite ok..then i very confidence 1..but when exam time i m 2 careless..abt
careless i lost almost 20+++marks..when i c back d paper..i really
sad..really...i 1 go sing k but nio plp accompany me..if chin around me
tats good..i m not dnt knw how 2 do jz no time check back then careless
mny things..u knw xiaojia also take better than me..this 1 i really 1 go n
die liao lo..i thought at least my math can win her..haiz...when i cry..hao
accompany me..give me sollow ..said funny things 2 me...said he 'll teach
me 1..i was so touching..he also got touch my head like i m his sis
tat..sweekeat leh..this trial exam she result also good..although not good
like all A but she better than me..she seldom touch book also better than
me..got some sad lo y i m so useless..i very scare tat i cant get 3.0M above
then how can i enter U choose better coarse...haiz...this exam i only get
1.5M..never n ever got 1 course 4 me in U...sad sad sad...jz nw go n view
friends blog..so suprise chee wei got write blog leh..omg..hehe..he this
kind of plp also got wrote blog..haha..got c tiok siaoying's ex bf die ad..so
shocked..although dnt knw who is he..but very sad 2 hear abt tat..2day
got heard my bro said last time i helped d plp in accident 1..he got go
exam PMR..he is getting well now..recover ad n nw nothing liao..so
happy 2 heard tat..2day onwards i 'll less write blog liao coz need near
exam liao lo..left 1 month like tat..haiz..so nervous dnt knw how..Elissa
told me tat this month hv 2 push myself tat do a lot of Q abt math n che
then bio hv 2 repeat repeat n repeat again..hope tat d real STPM 'll not
dissapointed me..coz i m d hope 4 my parents..i 1 prove 2 my relatives tat
although my family is not rich than u all...sometime 'll worry abt $ but i
'll bcom a best plp...i 'll let my parents being enjoy thier old life...this is
my hoping...mum r also de..she buy a lot medicine 4 me 2 eat..got IQ , B-
complex+vitamin , Brands ...haiz..sometime very bored eat 2much
ad..but very work la..coz study long time also no tired..haha..now is i 1
being compete v time..no much time left 4 me 2 revise all my books..hope
i can do it..hehe...hooray ...coz jiawing said she 'll go n interview Genting
d job..hehe got 1 person accompany me liao..when i told this 2 sweekeat
she scold me tat u not 1 independent meh..yalo..jz nw got c siaoyingz
blog..she write tat she think got some dnt 1 go G work..wat
RM80..although i dnt knw wat she talk but 'll wish all d best 4 her la..she
1 go where work also nvrm ..important is she happy enough...

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posted by Caitlyn @ 00:59   0 comments
2009/10/03
haiz..2day so cham..i m so tired..like siao plp..2day 9.00something wake
up ad then doing things until 12.00something then very tired..go sleep a
while..when wake up ad 2.30pm..shocked tiok coz i 1 study 1 ma..nvrm
la..i go stim hair..ok ad..then call come..is zhenghui..i thought he 1 tell
me 2day imterview things..manacai he ask me accompany him pay d
saman at bandar perda there..i dnt knw how r..1 refuse but seem like not
good then said must b4 5.00pm back o coz i ad promise sweekeat 'll
accompany her go jusco buy mooncake then go shopping a while..then
he said 'll b4 5.00pm back 1 ..a while nia pay saman..then i also no think
mny ..anything also dint take ..after eat n wash hair then out
ad..manacai he 1 buy trouser then buy mooncake also..when i back
kulim ad 5.15pm..sweekeat wait me outside my house r..i so
paiseh..haiz..then quikly go home take tuition things..anything also dont
eat tiok...jz nw b4 out also not eat so much..then again i go
jusco//wau.very tired u knw..then go tuition somemore..haiz...got some
regret 1..haha..but after tat nothing liao la..jz think tat accompany him
la..if not after i also regret 1 la..friend ma..i should accompany
him...then whole day no study..then nw on9 again..haiz..2moro must
start d planning but o 2moro family 1 go penang then somemore 1 pray d
goat's milk again..i still thinking wheter go ornot..if not go i can study at
home mayb ask sweekeat coming then no need go librabry..if go sure
boring then waste time..haiz..dnt knw how..long time no out v parents
liao lo...long time no shopping v them liao..dnt knw how...2moro
mooncake festival..i wish all of my friend '' Happy Mooncake Festival ''
although v nt 2gther celebrate..still hoping tat when c d moon 'll miss
me..hehe
posted by Caitlyn @ 01:34   0 comments
2009/10/01
long time no write blog liao..hiu hiu..this whole week exam..so suffer cant sleep well then result nt good..che~i only get 18Q correct..i cant accept..really..i m nt so weak r..haiz..dnt knw..i though my che is ok than bio so nt so study 2 much..then nw regret..haiz..i this time only 1 sub 'll pass nia tat is bio..i think gua..others sub cant imagine...so sad abt my result..this trial let me so sad coz i act this like stpm..i 1 c how much level i m..result is so weak..cant imagine how abt
stpm..i knw mum very worry me..she always said go n do teacher better la..coz they no need worry abt $ then salary abt teacher also quiet high..i knw but i 1 try my best ma..try go n study U then only think abt tat..but jz nw mum said dad nt so mny years can i study..after 4/5 years..he 'll retire..then tat time cant afford my studies n my siblings also..they so worry abt $..i said nvrm 1..can loan then d important things is if v r clever person..dnt hv 2 worry..after tat can
get matric /jpa..i cant get not seem tat they cant..my bro studies also quiet ok ma..haiz~talk others..sibao's grandmum pass away ad..i got console him..he also nothing la..older plp pass away is such a common thing..jz tat night he sms said d thing let me touching..he said he knw me is busying stuy then not always sms 2 me..although like tat..he got worry abt me..got miss me ...huh huh..touching..i also sui la..when he sms me..i 'll 4get reply him or reply 3/4 times then no reply him liao//dnt knw y i m so lazy 2 sms la..waste time..hehe..14/9/2009 is a terror
day..i met an accident..d victim is not me r..is 2 student frm ours scholl..i dint watch how d accident happen..i jz watch tiok 1 student wake up..another 1 is lying there..then his hand up then his body is shaking..i though he was ''fa yang tiao'' then quickly run there 2 c..tat time not much plp..when i go near..i shock..this student injured..his head is bleeding..got mny blood..his eye reflect 2 white..omg..i dint c this situation b4..then i ask plp phone 2 ambulans..i scare 2
touch him coz he injured his head..d thing i can do is i trying get a car then ask plp fetch him 2 hospital..i scare he 'll due 2 2 much bleeding until die..im so useless..i should move d victim 2 shadow place..coz d floor 2 hot 4 him then should stop d blood flow out..i m bio student leh..also dnt knw..mayb not think tiok..d plp i ask 2 fetch this victim..they refuse said tat 'll dirty thier
car..wat an excuse..this is a life..they cant like tat..after a while got a indian guy fetch him...then d nxt day i tell sweekeat them..i really not much give help..jz ask plp call ambulans , stop d car asking wheter can fetch d victim , help d move d victim up 2 d car..jz like tat..i no do anything..then let plp c tiok then always praise me..i m so paiseh...then d nxt day when i knw d student nothing liao..my heart relax...i m so worry abt him...haiz..he jz F3 nia..then need take
pmr soon..after this i very scare 2 c accident..i feel very horror n sad..mayb jz a moment then d plp 'll die..life is so fragile...this satur is mooncake festival..is d festival i like d most..this time i got eat tiramisu mooncake..wau..so delicous..hehe..bought by uncle..i really feel 1 open a party..then
bbq 2gther then take tanglung wake along d street..i really hope so..but near exam liao la..jz let d festival go away la..

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